Tired, I lay on my heavy bag on an open area, taking a break from the long walk. As I look up upon the night sky, I smiled. As beautiful as words can describe, the sky was filled with little shining stars. And the next thing came to my mind was you. All my worries and pain just disappeared. Suddenly everything seem to slowed down. The sound from the crowd simply died down. Unconsciously I started singing Yellow, whispering to myself. For once I felt happy deep inside. A magical moment. At the end of the song that sinking feeling came back and everything went back to normal. Just thinking about that moment is wonderful. When will that magic happen again?

So tired. Mentally drained. Lack of motivation. How come everything seem to be so screwed up for me?
Why is it there so many obstacle. That's life I guess. You can't just be happy and everything going smoothly. Something will just fucked you up. Unexpectedly. I want to keep moving ahead. I need to but its just getting harder. With every step forward, it feels like two steps backwards. Sometimes I feel lonely. She seems to always talk about other guys. Im too nice. I think Im too nice that people use me. I always lend my ears, listening to their problems. Im too busy involved in other people's life when my life is in a mess. It's really tiring. Really dead tiring. I need that spark to reignite my spirit, to motivate me once again. Where do I find it? Perhaps from you? What I need is a good sleep.