bend & break

26 Oct 2007

Life

What is life?
I don’t know.
Life is just…life.
It starts and it ends.
But what is it like?
It’s not like time. Time cannot be stopped. Life can.
Yet, it’s like a river. Rivers can be controlled. Life can be controlled.
So is life like a river? Nah.
It’s not like a river, and it’s not like time…
What is life? What is it like?
Well, I’d say…
Life is whatever you want it to be. Good or bad.
No one else can make you change how your life is except you.
The question now is…
What DO you want it to be?
It’s your choice. Make it a good one.
(:
cheers!

16 Oct 2007

So AHOY mates!

Last week I had a shock. The doctor told me I had Globotyzal disease and I shouldnt think or try to remember what I did the past few days or I'll get a seizure. So thus I couldnt blog until now cause they found a cure.

Cold humour to start the entry doesnt hurt does it?

Anyway 13 Oct was Hari Raya. It isnt as exciting as I anticipated. Not like when I was a kid. Not lively I guess? Having children in the house does bring that joyous atmosphere. Oh well life still goes on. That night I didnt sleep at all. I dont want to sleep cause its a celebration! Well I was told that ancestors come to visit before the sun rise again. Hmm. No spirit is gonna make me go sleep!

Woke up early as usual. It was so damn packed! Went home sleep again. Then came the time to ask for forgiveness from parents. Dont know why suddenly got that onion feeling and my eyes was watery (excuses). As a human Im prone to committing sins and wrong doings. Its whether you admit that you done it and do whatever to make it right again that makes someone great. Im not praising myself or whatsoever. Green packets! Well being a kid does have its advantages. People will surely give you green packets. Now they just walk the other way. Year by year Im losing money! Oh well life is unfair. Whoever said it is is a bloody liar. Damn you.

Cousins, aunts and uncles are such fun. Rolling with laughters now and then and my 2 month old cousins is so damn cute! He cant look straight because his cheeks is so chubby and his head will tilt to the left or right. Maybe because he is just a baby :/

I'll post pictures next time. So darn lazy. Went home at 1am and slept at 4 which I cant remember why.

Today was a normal typical day. See what Joan draw

Not sure if its a pig or a mouse.

Anyway I and Maureen are going through strict diet. Im going to continue fasting till Im slim like a cardboard but Ill drink water. Whether will is works, I dont know. Will the temptation get the better of me, I think so. Haha. Gee what have I done?!

Tomorrow is captains ball selection. I want to go but alot of people are not going and its making me think twice about going. Feel out of place? Like duh. God make a clone of me.

ps. read the disease I had backwards.

keeping a secret does hurt ):

15 Oct 2007

poem

F reedom to me is something
E ternaly locked away.
E verlasting pain is the
L ast thing i feel before

M y mind shuts down for the night.
Y earning to be with her, the

W indow closes before
I can get through, and
N othing will change.
G iven this life full of
S hame and pain, all i can do is

S leep my days away.
L iving as if for nothing,
O verwhelming feelings
W ash over my mind, and I
L ose control of it all...
Y esterday seems so

F ar away, and tomorrow never comes,
A ll I can
D o is hope that
I dont end up
N ever waking from this
G rusome dream that is

F orever my reality.
O minous clouds
R ender the horizon invisable,
E ven as the sun sets behind me, the
V eil of my clouds never
E ven seem to give me some sort of
R est from this Hell I live in.

L osing it all, the feelings toward her
O verride the feeling to end my life.
S he is the only
T hing that keeps me here.

I n confusion I cant say her
N ame, but in my mind I scream it.

T omorrow does come,
I nside my mind, a lonely soul
M ourns for the angels
E ver falling from the sky...

I n my mind i love her

C easing all other feelings,
R ely on the force of love,
Y esterday seems so far away...

can you see it?
I've been drawn to poems lately. Weird but watever.
Haha. Okay I will blog as soon as Im done being lazy. I'll blog soon!

3 Oct 2007

person who tagged me-
Clareeeee!

2. my relationship with her-
I think we're friends. HAHA

3. my 5 impressions of her-
Crazy, friendly, talkative, sweet and talkative. HAHA

4. most memorable thing that she had done for me-
Erm... too much to be mention! :D

5. most memorable words that she said to me-
Erm... too much to be mention :D

6. if she becomes my lover, i will?-
That wont happen. Seriously.

7. if she is my lover, she has to improve on-
Nothing?

8. if she becomes my enemy-
If she does, pigs can fly. Get what i mean?

9. if he becomes my enemy, the reason is-
Irritating sia the questions.

11. my overall impression of him-
She's so friendly!

12. how do i think people around me will feel about me?
I dont know.

13. the character i love about myself is-
Im lame?

14. on the contrary, what character i hate about myself-
Too sensitive?

15. the most ideal person i would like to be-
I dont want to be anyone but myself

17. pass this quiz to 10 ppl
WOOPEE

1) MAY
2) JASPER
3) HWEE ING
4) BIYAN
5) SHUQIN
6) LING LING
7) YONG SHIN
8) BAVANI
9) DUONG
10) HUI YANG

is no9 a male/female?
female

if no1 and no10 be together, is it a good thing?
HOHOHO! why not?! haha

how about no3 and no4?
hmm lesbians?

what is no2 studying about?
he works for Sembahwang Waste

last time i chatted with no3?
yesterday!

what kind of music does no8 have?
hindustani da

no6 have any siblings?
an evil twin?

will you woo no7?
hahaha...shes my counsellor

is no4 single?
nope married

surname of no5?
i seriously have no idea

where’s no3 studying?
Ngee Ann Polytechnic

have you tried developing feelings for no8?
when i die? haha

where does no9 live?
telok blangah drive

what colour does no4 like?
blue?

does no7 like no2?
no7 have better taste.oops sorry no2

how do you know no2?
bad luck brought us together

no5 have a pet?
nope

uno

dos

tres