bend & break

30 May 2008

peanut?

So its holiday soon. Dont feel that 'holiday mood' anymore. Maybe due to the fact that ive got lots of stuff do to because of the 2 weeks. Well havent been feeling good these few days, feeling abit restless. Thinking about it kinda make me lost. Dont feel like going club also. Still feel disconnected.

Anyway the other day i watch a spelling competition on tv. I kinda laugh at the contestant as most was erm...well...geeky. Haha. Kinda remind me of myself last time but i wasnt that geeky looking. Tried spelling the words too and i got like 5 right out of like 100 words? (the show is 3 hours long). I realize that cartoons nowadays are really hmm whats the word...CRAPPY!? Oh boy how crazy can it get, cartoons like 'My Gym Partner Is a Monkey' and 'Codename Kids Next Door'.

Feel like going for a movie marathon. Missed alot of good movies. A 3 or 4 hour watching movie after a movie. Anyone wanna join in? Ill buy the popcorn. Heh.

Will continue again soon!
bye for now

29 May 2008

and i'd give up forever to touch you
cause i know that you feel me somehow
you're the closest to heaven that ill ever be
and i dont want to go home right now
and all i can taste is this moment
and all i can breathe is your life
cause sooner or later its over
i just dont want to miss you tonight

25 May 2008

dont mind me

i dont know exactly how to put it to words
maybe
im just caught up,
caught up in between reality
and my wishful thinking

at least thinking about it
made me smile

[edit]

Well its been a week and being with them really feel good but i cant help it to feel abit disconnected. That weird feeling just wont go away and im not sure why. Im also feel disappointed not able to get what i want. I know im to blame for putting myself in such situation. Well who says life is fair? It wasnt meant to be mine i guess. On the brighter side, no hard times for me. Heh.

The other day amin asked me a question which kinda caught me by surprise. He asked what do i want to achieve or do in my sp days before graduating. It took me awhile to answer. I said i wanna pull the biggest prank in sp and he wants to be well known in sp. After thinking bout it i think, that isnt what i want i guess. Still thinking about it though.

Went to expo last friday as the guys wanna go shopping. Damn it there is alot of stuff i wanna get but i didnt bring cash as i thought im not gonna spend. If i go another day, i bet it'll be gone. What a nincompoop. Went with leon for a job interview. Please let me have that job, i need more cash.
I cant believe leon also use me to get what he wants. You owe me one dude. Haha. Seriously.

and that sentence got me laughing all the time

"...we'll return to fox presenting E.T. the extra testicle in just a moment."

hahaha!
whose line is it anyway never fails to make me happy (:

cao!

20 May 2008

Fariz is not dead. Fariz did not magically disappeared. Fariz was not abducted by a 3-eyed alien. Fariz just went on a 2 week holiday to visit his relatives in Czech Slovakia. Well fariz was just emoing because of a twist of bad fate. Feeling lost and confuse, fariz sleep and eat hoping it will go away. That method didnt work obviously and my ass hurts from sleeping for so long.

The good news(might be a bad news to you), im back. The bad news, i lost my kfc discount card!
Well its nice to know that i got friends that cared and was certain that everything was going to be alright. With calls and texts of words of encouragement, i feel so blessed and touched to have such wonderful friends. With friends like these, life is great.

During this period of time, i spend most of my time with my family and mum use this opportunity to torture me. HOUSEWORK! Ugh damn it. Well okay i deserve it i guess.

Self reflecting is a good thing to do. It makes look back and learn. Part of growing up. Its something i need to do a lot cause im the kind of person who finds humour in everything. It makes me immature and not reliable in people's eye. Its not that i cant be serious or anything. Should i change just to please someone else? For the better? Thus becoming who im not? A random thought still hanging. Okay enough ME for now.

Watched a few movies on the net and tv. First was babe, then the green mile and lastly the bucket list. Babe as you all know the pig in the farm who thinks its a dog. I hate movie about an animal that can do stuff like playing basketball better than a human. Like wth but babe is an exception. Its nice living in a farm. Fresh air, home-grown vegetables and the smell of animals shit. Who wouldnt love that. The green mile is a movie i wanted to watch for a long time cause tom hanks is in it. The story is pretty slow and might be a bore for those adrenalin junkie. The funny part was tom hanks character was having some problems with his erm...forget the word..pee-ing system. So the big black guy grab his nuts(dont think dirty, hes a faith healer) and cured him. The last movie is about friendship and what is life. My favourite part was the questions.

Have you found joy in your life?
Have your life brought joy to others?

Alright ive been tagged. (jump, roll, rip my hair, slit wrist, cry, bang head against wall)
Kidding.

Tagged by sining.

Questions
01. What disappoints you the most?
when people dont finish their food
for crying outloud people are starving out there!

02. Where will you go if someone sponsors you a tour ticket?
A concert tour with paris hilton, im her biggest fan
kidding
erm...hawaii

03. What's your favorite thing to do?
laughing. the best medicine

04. Do you think money can buy happiness?
to a certain extent. It fulfills the wants/needs but it doesnt truely bring you happiness

05. If you can have one dream to come true, what would it be?
flying with monkeys

06. Do you believe you can survive without money?
of course its a no! dude..like what??

07. What are you afraid to lose the most?
me

08. If you win $1 million, what would you do?
ill buy myself a pet monkey and teach it to do lots of tricks and then i can earn more money and thus im able to buy more monkeys and train those monkeys and earn more...you get my drift
and oh ya save the needy

09. What is the most embarrassing thing that happened to you recently?
i didnt zip my pants

10. List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you?
cheerful, funny and fun

11. What makes you happy?
life

12. What type of person do you hate the most?
not hate just dislike - talk too much bullshit thats not even funny, weirdos, a person who thinks he/she is better than others

13. Where do you see yourself 10 years down the road?
travelling around the world...sigh

14. If you could have a superpower, what would it be?
the invisible kid with x-ray vision...every guys dream...nah i wish i could fly

15. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
everyone

16. Any childhood memories you'll like to re-live?
when dad was more fatherly

17. If you have a chance, which part of your character would you like to change?
self-confidence...sigh

18. Can a guy and a girl really be best friends?
somehow a guy usually will fall for the girl
haha thats my opinion

19. Are you courageous enough to go and tell the person that you like her/him?
well...

20. List 1 bad thing about the person who tagged you to do these questions?
i guess none? :/

Instructions: Remove 1 question from above, and add in your personal question, make it a total of 20 questions, then tag 8 people in your list, list them out at the end of this post. Notify them in their chat box that he/she has been tagged.

1. biyan
2. joan
3. fang qing
4. huiyang(maybe)
5. jasper(wont do)
6. no friend ):
7. no friend ):

if only i can sing like that

3 May 2008

and looking back at those camp photos sure brings back alot of memories
haha

Well had an sc outing to sentosa last sunday. So went over to isaac hs the day before to watch soccer and also prepare the refreshments for the outing. Well what happened that say will be a secret. Damn funny shit. Anyway in the morning we prepare the food. We did the sandwiches like some factory worker. Like first station is butter station next veggie, next tuna and lastly the cutting station. haha. I was the veggie boy :/ Well it kinda sucks looking at the lettuce. Then we made our way to Harbour Front to meet the rest. The response wasnt alot but it was more than what we expected which is good.
We had fun there, everybody doing there own stuff and having fun. Meet a few people who is from camp but i dont know them well. A few cam whoring session then went to shower.
Truthfully i felt abit left out going with the other group.

Then went on the tram with nicholas and we had a fruitful conversation. It was a pleasant surprise and it also felt good letting someone know.

I was damn sleepy while waiting for the rest. Didnt have enough sleep i guess. Then went to vivo and had dinner at the top. It was kinda nice and interesting. Get to know more people like mee siam and prada.

Then on Tuesday had our first main com meeting which was damn hilarious. Alot of work to be done and AGM is so near. Hope to do it well along with peoples support. I know some people have doubts about me having that position.

Labour day i spent my time with my family which was great.

Friday had soccer training and i serious suck. I know where i stand. Need to play more.
Then went to alvina's house to celebrate her birthday! Celebrating someone's birthday is fun. Didnt eat enough! Was feeling grumpy haha. Went home and knocked out.

Today was normal.

to someone who is confuse: dont be! and cheer up (:

GTG
bye

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